Saturday, May 13th 2023  at 11:18 am 

I've decided to start a blog today. I've been wanting to write about my success with the Law of Attraction, and my uncanny ability to manifest some very specific things that I've desired into existence.  Lately I have been getting a lot of signs from the Universe that I need to share my story. This morning as I scrolled through social media, I encountered an ideas that pointed to blogging as a possibility. This resonated with me as I was listening to a podcast last night on my way home from work, that also mentioned blogging. 

I totally understand that this is how algorithms work. Our phones overhear conversations we have with our  friends in real life, and suddenly our social media feeds are full of ads and content that pertain to a particular conversation. So naturally keywords in the podcasts we listen to are also absorbed in this way, and filter into our lives accordingly.  

However, I'm no longer going to be dismissive of this as I've come to an interesting realization.

The way that this works in social media, is very similar to how things work on a spiritual level with manifesting and the law of attraction. The more you engage with something by thinking about it, or taking subtle actions toward it, the more likely you are to attract that thing into your life.

  I will break definitely break this process down over the course of this blog, but for now, here are some really cool things that have happened to me  in recent years that make me feel like I've tapped into something amazing  and have knowledge about this process that I can  share to help others. 

1. A few years ago, after listening to actor, Jim Carey's story about writing himself a check for 10 million dollars, I wrote myself a check for $100,000 and left it in a retired wallet where I kept keepsakes like cool business cards, school photos, and student ID's etc.  I honestly forgot about having done that until recently, a friend of mine shared the story about Jim Carey and it triggered the memory that I had actually done that, and that -OMG!!! - it actually worked!!!  It slipped my mind because at least 5 years had passed since even touching or thinking about that wallet, and during the time in between,  I had some uncanny "real estate magic"  in my life when the very modest 1400sqft "starter-home" I purchased in my mid-20's, and lived in for the previous 8 years,  had suddenly and unexpectely nearly doubled in value. 

2. Speaking of "real estate magic",  between selling my starter home and rehabing another,  I manifested my dream house. A house I used to love and admire and want for my own as I would ride my bike past 15 years ago. This required moving twice in one year and spending a few months living amongst plaster dust and eating out of a microwave and hot plate but both transactions  were  punctuated by amazing synchronicities in numbers and timing, and other signs from the Universe that solidify that the Law of Attraction is real. 

3. I manifested a non-profit visual arts initiative that is helping to revitalize  my town. Again, a journey full of synchronicities where the exact things and people our small group of volunteers needed in order to help make the good things we do a reality, were brought into being at exactly the right moment they were needed. 

The assembling of puzzle pieces for my latest and greatest manifestations started around this time last year and  I'm excited to begin mapping this out for you over  time.  Until then here is a my list of intentions for the day:

1. Walk 2 miles

2. Follow up on communication with neighbors and guest artist for Thursday's fundraiser event. 

3. Make visuals and "Did You Know ...? trivia for the event

4. Complete last two items needed for grant reimbursment and submit

5. Paint Ann's landscapes

Sunday, May 14th 2023 at 9:37 am

Intentions for the day:

1. Finish Ann's Landscapes

2. Celebrate Mother's Day with Ann

3. Finish last few "Did you Know..?" questions

4. Put slides together with mural process photos

5. Walk one mile. 

6. Clear border around patio and plant rhododendrons

7. Complete last two items needed for grant reimbursement and submit

8. Come up with assignment for Graphic Arts Class

The only way I am going to make something a habit is if I make some time to do it each and every day even when I don't feel like it.  Walking one mile every day is the first New Year's Resolution I have kept this long into the year. If there is ever a day I can't get out for my walk, I go for two miles the next day. Now it feels bad when I don't go. Like I am missing something very crucial from my day. 

 Today I don't feel like writing a blog post. I am obviously anxious about finishing Ann's paintings before I see her today, and I feel bad that I didn't get as far as I wanted to on the tasks I posted yesterday. With all of these other things on my mind, it is hard to want to do this. However, for so long I have been wanting to create a body of written work, and its not going to happen unless I make some time for it daily.  I have to be honest are realistic about the fact that there are going to be days when I feel uninspired and I just don't want to, but that I'm going to need to do it anyway so I don't fall off the wagon and end up ditching the habit. 

Monday, May 15th 2023 at 11:20pm

Its late and I want to go to bed, but I had a very good experience being in the audience of a panel discussion on WVIA. And gave a very satisfying response to a question. I later watched the footage. Seeing myself in front of the camera is eye-opening. Seeing myself how other people must see me instead of how I see myself from the inside. Even looking in the mirror is yet another dimension. I will have more time to write and do all of the things I want to catch up on tomorrow. But I needed to keep the habit going. So I'm typing against the urge to close my eyes and go to sleep. I hope my dreams will be interesting. 

Wednesday, May 24th 2023 at 10:23 pm

I had an amazing fundraiser event that eally boosted my self confidence. I have also created some good karma by removing vandalism from another artist's mural and restoring it to its original condition. Today I completed two tasks that were on my to-do list for a really long time and it feels like the untying of knots. I'm no longer carrying that stress with me. I have gotten back into my walking habit after missing it for a few days due to being extraordinarily busy.  I look forward to the impending Memorial Day weekend and the extra time to relax. 

Sunday, May 28th at 9:02am

So, I keep thinking about a conversation I had with Jeff Gilroy about manifesting things into our lives. The part of the conversation that was about comedeian and actor Jim Carey, writing the check to himself for $10k,  is something I've likely mentioned before and wish to elaborate on. 1. I know I am going to eventually be a millionaire. I already own one assett worth half a million dollars, and I know that I am an intelligent and thoughtful human being who will somehow figure out a way to connect with others and enhance their lives that will in turn provide capital for me to either sustain passive income or invest. 2. Looking at the why behind wanting to become a millionaire is something else. My reasons for it is that I want to be absolutely debt-free, and be generous toward the small buisnesses and arts  and creative initiatives I support without it having a negative impact on my ability to survive and thrive. Perhaps I am already doing that, or already have the ability to do those things. And I need to take a step forward.  

Monday, June 5th at 5:54 am 

I figured out that the only way I'm going to be able to get my projects done is if I keep chipping away at them a little bit every day.  Force myself to do a little bit even when I don't feel like it. The best time for writing is when I wake up in the morning because my headspace is alone with my own ideas and I don't have to share them with thoughts from random people on the internet. Its like we are all becoming this weird hive mind, and perhaps this has also happened before with television, etc. I just feel like its weird now because there are a bunch of things that circulate that we have picked up on without our conscent. At least when we were a generation that watched too much tv, we could more easily break that down in to different categories by changing the channel, and there weren't as many options to be distracting. This morning the only thing I have looked up on my phone was a dream interpretation about arson, and prior to reading that, the weather. ... In the dream, I was in a rural area, but with many houses kind of like Trucksville,. Many of the homes were burned due to an arsonist. The dream interpreted is a message against the establishment. From the perspective of a witness to these crimes, seeing them in the dream,  I am against the status quo and I wish to see my enemies fail.  I don't have any enemies in real life. I don't have any inner suppressed rage, or anything else. So I think this dream is just a commentary on  what I see happening with social media. These are the best years of my life. I have so many good things happening, and I feel that being pulled away by the chaos and existential dread over what I am currently witnessing happen to the world. Why at this point in my life must I worry about the rise of fascist authoritarianism? Why at this point in my life am I witnessing friends have their mental space hallowed out by garbage propaganda on social media. Has anyone already written a book called "Escaping the matrix?" If I could wake up every day and do THIS...as in add a chapter to my writing, Then I am making progress toward a big long-term goal, rather than having my mind and my thoughts erased, my authentic thoughts evaporated by the garbage I see on social medai every morning. By waking up at 5:30 and immediately getting to work on this blog post (after petting Cali and Gibson) I've been able to add ____________ many more words to the script. And its not even 6:30 yet. In ten more mintues I will have to begin getting ready for work. At this poin tthe rest of the post is going to be a challenge to see how much writing I can actually fit in. SOmeday when someone reads the blog in its entirity, the beginning of it will be evidence of the author tring to melt writer's block and get the flow going , then we will se the moment flow starts to happen and it will be a beautiful thing. Ther e are definitely a lot of spelling mistakes here, but they will be erased when I come back to this later,. The best things is closing my eyes and typing... This way I don't even have to look at the screen. Its a terrific talent to have and I am so greatful that I took typin gclass in highschool. I have a direct conduit from my brain to the screen. To thse words that are coming out and populating this page. I just close my eyes and think. its like being in a trance.  like kind of a magic. I wonder how many authors wrote with thaier eyes closed like this. how many successful authors conducted this kind of magic and just closed their eyes and liet their words flow drectly from their brains onto the page? It is almost 6:30 now. I have about four more minutes. I want to stop here though  and ge t a words count. Yesterday I spent the day working out in the garden. It was the most perfect day for that. I have to tell Sam that I do not want to hang out often when we get together for our walk. I feel like he was texting me way too much and it seemed desperate. I feel like... he was a guy that I pass on my walk that I wanted to simply break the ice and compliment his dogs and he invites me out for coffee, etc. and I just feel like that's really audacious. and I'm not interested. And I need to make that clear without being a jerk. 

Tuesday, June 6th 2023 at 10:44pm

I didn't take my daily mile-long walk today because the air is full of ash particles and an acrid burning smell from the wildfires in Canada. It smells like someone burning paper garbage outside and everything is hazy. I hope a lot of it will clear up overnight, as I'd enjoy being outdoors for my birthday. 

I would like to go to sleep as soon as possible, but I wanted to write about how this morning, i work up and read the Silva mind control techniques book.  I've been thinking about healing my brain. I think I have some brain damage that effects verbal congnitive processing, but I can definitely fix that. 

I made a lot of decisions about throwing things away in the art room today. It felt good. and parts of it were easy because I was using my subconsious. 

Making a habit of going thourough my photo albug ot delete and condense photos is a great way to activate memories I had forgotten about, in additiona to activating the part of the brains that corresponds. 

10:50// .time for sleep. . 

Thursday, July 27th at 7:07 am

Summer vacation is limited. There is only about a month left. We didn't do any travel or vacationing this year. I wouldn't mind going to Long Beach Island by myself, but its a three hour drive and the park might be full before I get there. If I could limit my focus, stop being overwhelmed by all of the noise and concentrate on making progress toward just a few things everyday, that would be ideal. 

1. Creating a deck of oracle cards. To do this, I have to go deep within myself and meditate on individual attributes of the day. Pay attention to nature and the seasons. Create a card for each one. And a written description. Maybe its easier to create the written description first? And then create a card with each one of the attributes. I will not create physical art for this, but create digital art instead. It may take a while. but it will be authentic. Gold Standard. 

2. Create a system by which the cards functioned. How many cards? what attributes will they cover?

3. Create the companion book